"I have come to know my life as fiction." So begins the authors searingly personal account of transforming his real-life losses and traumas through poetry, cinema, ritual theatre, and in his relationships. Topics include The Clouds of Unknowing; Vertical Integrity; Amor Fati; Cinema of the Future; Anima Attacks!; Reinventing the Romantic; Fine-Tuning Your B.S. Detector; The Self-improvement Scam; The Alchemy of Obsession; Courting the Muses; Frontier Scouts of the Gene Pool; The End of the World as I Want It; and much more. Featuring the photo­graphic art of Sylvi Alli, his artistic collaborator and partner over three decades, along with her Afterword on their extraordinary journey together.